Silver And Cold

This is Ginger :3 The best kitty in Florida.


Hmm.. so... "Fred" is having more issues. Going through divorce while girlfriend is just pissing with his emotions like he's some fucking toy. He still doesn't see it. Because she says she loves him. And she says she's gonna fuck him til he loses 10 pounds after she gets here. And he's getting more depressed as the days go by. I wish I could cheer him up. And I dont want to leave him here alone for another two months. He'd wind up killing himself. Last night he said he wanted to go to a private place today and take his life. I reminded him he has those who love him and need him, like his daughter. Talking about his daughter got him to change his mind. It's safer for me to remind him of his daughter than to tell him I love him so much. He was telling me how I need to move on. And after I tried stressing he has a lot of people who love him, he said the only two people who love him are his daughter and me. So apparently he doesn't even believe that his girlfriend really loves him. He's just with her because she's hot. And "goth". She's gonna lead him to kill himself. I know it. And I dont want that to happen. if that happens, I won't be able to cope. I couldn't stand losing him. I've never been so in love with someone. He doesn't see it.

Everyone missed it. I went to Billy's to talk to Mary. Because "Fred" had pissed me off by talking to girls on the phone who weren't his girlfriend for hours on end and shit. Well, she let her feelings show. She thinks "Fred" is a fucking child molester, because of me being 18. And she is jealous of me. And she keeps calling me a child and a baby and a runaway. And she keeps telling "Fred" that he needs to send me home

I got to see a space shuttle go off. Wasn't anywhere near it. Since I'm in Orlando. And I could still see it really well from the light. "Fred" made sure I could see it.

FYI: My thoughts are all a mess due to hurting.

Got a few new fav songs. Silver and Cold by AFI. There for you by Flyleaf. And Cassie by Flyleaf.

"Fred" keeps playing songs that make me cry. Better Than Me and Lips of an Angel by Hinder. They make him cry too.

I want to stay here with him but that would mean I'd have to get a job and get my own apartment if I want to stay in school so I could transfer schools. Since I can't stay here. I'd rather stay in school. Cause I want to go to school for therapeutic massage. It'd be nice if I could just stay in palcs but they only let models stay outside of the state 95% of the year.



So. AFI - Miss Murder (Director's Cut)




AFI - Silver And Cold